A year makes a world of difference

Things have changed soo much since I've last written here.

My sister mentioned this blog to me yesterday when we were enjoying lunch at Aladdins and I think I'll start up again...particularly because summer is coming and more time will be available, seeing as the school year will be over.

In a nutshell...

I live in a new apartment.
I have a new man.
I work in my field.
I am not run by external social "shoulds."

Sigh...=)

Oh my goodness! Went to dinner with my love tonight. Oh, it was the best dinner date I've ever been on with anyone! Lol.  Forgive me while I rant a bit about this.  We went to a LOVELY fine dinning establishment. We had all the treats: wine, jazz music in the background, amazing food, appetizers, and desert! Oh and not to mention the wonderful connection that we always had, it's just getting even more mature.


For some reason, life is starting to finally come together.  Life feels so surreal after things have been so tumultuous for so long.  All I really ever wanted was to be happy with him.  I just needed to find my happiness alone first.  Now is the test of maintaining my own happiness.  Distance does make the heart grow fonder and much wiser.  I must remember that.

Valentines Day

So good golly Miss Molly. It's been a hell raiser this week.  Drama Mama and drama Papa have been the stars of the show.  Anyway, things have oddly enough smoothed out.  Honesty is key; honesty is key (No omissions.)  The man and I are unofficially official now. Even going out to dinner this week for this predetermined day of romance.  I really don't know how it all happens.  He's got the light in his eyes for me yet again, just as it was almost two years ago.  Crazy what time will do for people.

Fantastic Evening!

So after quite an exhausting day at work, due to unexpected circumstances, I had a glorious evening! I got to spend time with my love. We enjoyed catching up over dinner: hamburger helper for him and alphabet soup for me. Lively discussion of the past two weeks, which seemed like three months. Then, we enjoyed a movie together, of course talking through most of it. At least we got to state the positive changing we are making and want to maintain in the future. Always up front and honest is the best way, nomatter how awkward or uncomfortable it may be.

Anyway, thought I should add a quick update from my last post.

Sad Saturday

So I'm really not quite sure what to do tonight.  No, no, not in regards to who and what to do.  The world is still ticking and that's alright.  Let it tick without me for one night.  I don't know what to do about my love. We are at an unfortunate point in our relationship where we are not talking, not due to a fight or catastrophe.  We just know it's best for our situation to learn independently at this time.  However, there comes a point where you know you are just agonizing and yearning for each other.  Then there, is there justification in contact?  Or would it be more hurtful than helpful.  All I want to do is go find him, wherever he is and love him.